Delta

Change is reality, and occasionally reality is difficult to come to terms with. Thanks to a giant pile of bad luck, I have to sell Lucy. Bad luck losing my job in November, bad luck not being able to find a new job, bad luck not being able to find someone to commit to a lease. Kenny has been working like a crazy person to support all of us along with Lucy, and it's just not fair to him.

Pending the finalization of a contract, Lucy will be going to a trainer's barn in Massachusetts for a summer full of boot camp, shows, and hopefully events, and will be sold in September.

I am HEARTBROKEN.

It is harder than I even imagined to decide to sell a horse who has been a part of me for almost five years. When I've had a bad day, when I've needed a hug, I have run to her and buried my face in her neck more times than I can remember. She has been a source of joy, happiness, pride, fear, defeat, and most of all, humility. I don't even know who I am without her but I guess I'm going to have to find out.

The good news is that this trainer knows and loves her. She's ridden her before and thinks she has a ton of potential. I hope with all my heart that she can take Lucy and do all the things I've wanted to do with her but just didn't have the resources.

Every day I wake up and see that the calendar is closer and closer to June 1.

I hope to have some really good rides before she leaves. Earlier in the week, we went to the field and she was awesome. We did a lot of cantering around, and she was doing auto changes left and right when we switched directions. She is so much fun in the warm weather. I wish she was either that great year-round, or that I lived somewhere with more than a few months of nice weather! I think she knows she was born in Florida and wonders how the heck she ended up in New England.

Kenny came out and took some photos for me. Late last year, my hard drive crashed and I lost all of my photos of Lucy, Cairo, and everything else. I didn't have anything backed up. Stupid, stupid, stupid. It breaks my heart because we had so many fun experiences. All of the images I've uploaded to this blog are low-res versions of the original, so I can't print them. Another thing to chalk up to experience, I guess. Anyway, Kenny knows how upset I am about that and so the goal prior to June 1 is to take a bunch of photos and have a lot of fun with her.

cantering downhill: something new for us!

I hope that I can go and see her at the trainer's barn, and when she goes to a show, I want to go cheer her on.

I gave notice to my barn owner and my stall has already been filled and honestly, the whole thing feels like the end of an era. I absolutely adore my barn, my barn owner, and my friends there. I've already had many offers of horses to ride so this blog will hopefully keep going.